posted February 26, 2002 09:14 AM            

My name is Jayashree. I am a 30 year old widow with a four year old daughter now, living independantly in Mumbai, in India. I am relating below a real life episode in my life . . . . I had got married 7 years ago. Before marriage, I used to stay in a small town near Sangli. My parents were very conservative and superstitious. I was married off by my parents almost by force to my husband Anant, as he was from a very rich family and we were rather poor and I was considered very good looking in our town.

Though I do not wish to talk negatively about my late husband, the fact remained that, he was very sickly and weak right from birth. He was short - 5' 3 " ( I was 5' 7 " ! ), not so good looking, and very puny in build. By nature he was an introvert and very shy. On my wedding night itself, I was shocked to learn that he was impotent - but being a small town girl could not say or do anything. I was a healthy young woman and I was very desperate at my husband's impotence. In fact he used to shy away from me, when I went up to him. Life went on miserably for about two years. But then, as in a typical rural family, my husband's parents started virtually demanding a baby from me - which was out of question due to his impotence ! But as he had cried and pleaded with me not to reveal this, I could not tell this to his family. I did not know what to do. My husband was getting desperate along with me with each passing day, as the barbs at home kept growing.

At that time, into our town came a so called ' Religious Man ' ! He was called ' Baba ' by all and he was supposed to have miraculous powers. There was a rumour that his powers could even made barren women pregnant ! My superstitious mother in law immediately told my husband and myself to accompany her to that Baba, so that he could bless me to get a child fast. As I knew the reason for my not getting pregnant, yet to make her happy, I went with her and my husband to him. When we reached his house there was a lot of crowd. But as my mother in law was a well known rich woman, we were ushered in fast.

The moment I saw the baba, I got nervous. He was a huge 57 - 58 year old man. His height must have been around 6 ' 6 ". He was very hairy all over and had a long flowing beard. He had just worn a dhoti and his broad hairy chest, was bare. I was getting worried from the way he looked at me. He beckoned my mother in law to tell the purpose of our visit. My mother in law went up and told him that I was not getting pregnant and asked the baba to bless me. The baba told her that he will do so. He claimed that some special rituals were necessary to be performed with my husband and myself. He said it could only be done late in the evenings and would last for about 3 - 4 hours. He said no one except my husband, myself and himself should be present for the rituals. He asked my mother in law to send my husband and myself at 7.00 p.m. the next day. He then called my husband and privately talked to him for almost 10 minutes. Then we left. Later my husband came home and told me that the baba had asked him a lot of questions and he had finally admitted to the babaji that he was impotent, but yet unknowingly the family were demanding a baby.

Next day we reached the baba's place as he had instructed. There was no one there except his own two disciples. The baba asked them to leave the room. Only my husband, myself and the baba were left alone in the room. The Baba started staring at me. He then asked my husband to lock the door. He told my husband, ' Anantji, before staring the rituals, all of us must be clean. So take your wife, to the bathroom behind this room. Both of you give each other a proper bath. '

We went into the inner bathroom. It was very small and there was a single bulb, so the light was very dim. There was no latch from inside. I told my husband that I would first bathe him and he could bathe me immediately after. My husband removed all his clothes except his shorts. I removed my saree, my petticoat, my blouse and in my bra and panty started giving a bath to my husband. Suddenly the door opened and the Babaji entered. He had removed all his clothes except one single thin white towel, which he had worn on his hips. My husband and myself were both shocked.

He said, ' Anantji, there is no time to waste as the rituals need to at the auspicious time. And as there is only one bathroom, I will also take a bath in the side. You people continue. This way we can save time ! '

As the bathroom was very tiny, the baba was virtually next to us ! His eyes kept darting at my bra and my panty - rather openly, despite the presence of my husband. As he poured water on himself, the thin towel that he was wearing became wet and almost semi - transparent. I was shocked to distinctly see his organ thru' the towel. It was massive. It seemed to be sort of stirring ! The more, the Baba kept staring at my semi naked body as he was bathing, the more it was stirring and becoming erect ! Finally I finished bathing my husband. Due to the presence of the Baba, I did not remove my bra and panty, and my husband started bathing me.

The Baba said, ' Anantji, we are going to perform a very important ritual. Your wife needs to be totally clean. You must remove all her clothes and then bathe her ! '

My husband said, ' But Baba, she is feeling awkward because of your presence ! '